let the wind blow this message

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When I'm upset I tend to go and shop for food! I don't eat them straightaway however I feel relieved every time I do that. I don't like being ignored or being left not from you. :/ I wish some day I could let you know this uncomfortable feeling where I have to hide everything. I couldn't help but release all of my awkward feeling to food at least that was a positive escape. Ops another crazy thought of mine too, I don't know but I wish you weren't gay. Oh! that's the last thing on earth that I've ever wanted to know. Also, I want you to know that you shouldn't keep me waiting for too long or I might need to change my way. Tomorrow never dies my friend. And please don't make me upset else you're going to make me even fatter :/

I carry this in my prayer. I wish someone up there pass this to you and let you know that this is from me. 

"You got me singing, lalalalala"-NeYo

little wonders

Around here, however we don't look backwards for very long.

We Keep Moving Forward, opening up new doors and doing new things, because we're curious...

And curiosity keeps leading us down new paths.

-Walt Disney-

Warm greetings from Sydney and I can't wait for winter to come.

So, I'm currently having a mind blockage here and I think it is quite acceptable. 

'till then...I wish you all well.

New Y(ou)ear.ME.

 I, hereby with proud saying that the year 2010 has been a blessing and a great journey. I gained most of my goals and got even more that I have ever expected. For the whole year, I have been bumped here and there and being forced to stand up to become a better person and I'm glad I've been stronger than I thought. The weakness sometimes still struck me but with faith I know every thing will be just fine. The highandlow situations were expected as well and even though it was hard and difficult but it sure drives me to a lesson and it becomes a precious one.  I made mistake and I learnt my lesson, I am not going to stop learning every now and then. Believing that bad things could turned out to be a good one on the other hand expecting good things to become better. 

With the words new before the year, I got all the new things that I am sure need to work on along with the year 2011. Welcoming 2011, I am sure I have fastened my seat-belt. You?!
                                                                                                                                                                     

Double Joy in December and it is Christmas

UhOh! I missed the boxing day again, this is the third time. On boxing day, we went cherry picking to Orange, NSW. Yeah! it is named after Orange the fruit :) I'm so happy that I finally could spend my time with my family. I didn't get the chance to spend the Christmas eve and day with them so I spent it cherry picking on the boxing day. Fair enough! This year is just so crowded for me why? Because I got my friends here and my family. SO EXCITING! :D

Ohoh! did I share my Christmas presents with you?  My Christmas presents come early and I feel truly grateful for that. Thank you, God :) So, I am no longer a student err am thinking of getting a Master degree but nah, I want to enjoy being free from books for some period of time. And, I got my new job which I will be starting working next year, Jan 5th oh how exciting! :) 

Couple weeks ago since I've finished my school, I've been busy working and travelling up and down between Blue Mountains and city and it is sooo tiring. I'm glad that I finally resigned from the fine dining job. It was pretty hard for me to tell my manager that I wanted to resign but life has to go on. I just can't afford to spend 4hours time return travelling up and down every day. Life is about choices and it has to go on. The sad thing is I will be jobless for err 2weeks time? Well, lets wish that the time flies like it always does.

oh! my Christmas cupcakes! They are so cute, aren't they?

Merry Belated Christmas :)

This year Christmas is a bit different from the previous years. I got friends here together with me :) and on New Year's eve too!!! Ohyeah! This year we're going to wait from midday to midnight in Circular Quay just to see the spectacular fireworks :) wanna join?

The fireworks this year will be amazingly the same like previous one but the friends I got here that will make it different. xxx I can't wait!

The Illusion and The World behind me

"My courage and resolution is firm; but my hopes fluctuate and my spirits are often depressed. I am about to proceed on a long and difficult voyage, the emergencies of which will demand all my fortitude: I am required to only to raise the spirits of other, but sometimes to sustain my own, when theirs are failing."

Frankenstein, or, the Modern Promotheus

Here I am sitting in my new apartment which I love it and facing the harbour view which is just perfect. So, waiting for my life to go on and few days has passed in just a snap since my last day at school and now am holding on to the Bachelor degree. Things has not changed specifically except that my heart now is I think trying to find something to hold onto cause sometimes I find myself tired with all the world has offered me and I need a back up, for me to hold. Been busy with moving to this new house and still waiting for the confirmation of my new job. Fingers crossed for everything and I need bunch of luck :)

the Prayer

I thank God because I do not always get what I want every time I pray, instead I have been given what I need and that is the best.

I silently prayed so that my work shift get cancel today with the excuse that I wanted to study for my upcoming exams or perhaps I was just feeling lazy. I prayed, just so that my manager would call me and cancel it. No ring, faint-heartedly I went to work and again I found myself silently praying, that I would like to do my best at work today so I need the support and strength. At the end of my shift, I found myself being able to carry three main plates steadily and this made me realize that if I have not come to do my shift I might miss this chance to be trained by my senior colleagues. Not that I never carry three plates, the thing is what we have learnt at school is totally different if to compare with the real industry. I am working with a five star fine dining restaurant and I am expected to be able to carry plates steadily without destroying the chef's so called food-art. I tried to carry those plates last week which ended up being scolded by the head chef. 

It is not a big story to tell, but what I am trying to sell here is that in life, what we want is not always what we need. Always ask for the best and really I am not a religious person myself but I do believe that God exists and I have been given the best way to live my life. 

The up-s and down-s on December

December and it means the end of the year.
Things pass so fast recently that I barely realized it and *pops* I am standing here facing my last final exams ever in my entire life. Oh, yeah! How exciting it is that in no time I will be a Bachelor. The thing is the passion to study hasn't gotten into me just yet. I feel so lack behind seeing my friends putting all their will to face these very last exams. Why can't I? Been complaining a lot yet no action been made. *bangmetothewall*


As long as I know, people have been congratulated me for my pre-graduation. I am happy and feel so excited about it, I really do, but deep down there, I am worried. The fact that I am going out there to face the far more fierce life that it could offers me weaken my knees. I feel so insecure yet trying to be positive here. Whatever lives have to offer me, I am here to stand strong and face them. I do believe that the harder you fall, the better person you ought to be.


Another exciting news that I really want to share is, Oprah is going to perform her last show on 14th December at the Opera House. Oh! I am going there for sure. :) and it will be my after exams. yey! (although I might only stand outside of the building seeing nothing but who knows I might get lucky, HAHA!)